this lyrics is meaning ful to me

良药苦口
richie ren

或许你没说或许你没说
可是我感觉到你的不同
在你的眼神那一股闪烁
代表你已做了选择
其实你没说 你可以远走
感情事谁都不能去强求
咖啡也淡了 还可以加浓
你走了却不会回头

我告诉自己别难过 我告诉自己别冲动
男子汉大丈夫 这一点点挫折
再苦再疼也要能忍受
我告诉自己要看破 我告诉自己要挣脱
握紧的双手 慢慢地放松
声线被你装进了喉咙 良药苦口

你要的自由 我学着尊重
面色和脸色 统统带走
心事不能 请续杯酒
发的誓言会过期的

我告诉自己别难过 我告诉自己别冲动
男子汉大丈夫 这一点点挫折
再苦再疼也要能忍受
我告诉自己要看破 我告诉自己要挣脱
握紧的双手 慢慢地放松
声线被你装进了喉咙

亲爱的 别告诉我
他究竟对你有多么温柔 亲爱的
你别怪我 只要你懂 我真的很快乐
我告诉自己要看破 我告诉自己要挣脱
男子汉大丈夫 这一点点挫折
再苦再疼也要能忍受

我告诉自己要看破 我告诉自己要挣脱
握紧的双手 慢慢地放松
声线被你装进了喉咙 良药苦口
声线被你装进了喉咙 是良药苦口

why..

what is this feeling...angry?? unsatisfied?? shock?? sadness?? but why this happen...is it really happening?? or am i being sensitive...that is true and i hope is not...hope it end..never mind is good or bad...i won't be here anymore soon anyway...

think it as I'm running away..but is for everyone good...
is useless to repeat the same thing or words while no one understand their efforts..
then fine and let me be the one that run away..cause i can't take it anymore..

since when?? forgot...how many years?? lost count..i never see it as a big fact, and let it flow and i flow by it to..i let it become part of me...I'm not saying I've been drag by it...cause it didn't..or just i chose to be with it because of time...

huh...so stress...so frustrate and sad...is it wrong or illegal that a man or should say male, cry?? huh..i am weeping when writing this..

nothing to write..

well not nothing to write, even wrote a bit also consider wrote something...haha^^

anyway, i just wanna say that a bit stress this few days..haix...wtf
I'm looking for someone..wishing to know who are you...are you there??? can get your reply??
my msn, hotmail, and facebook, is the same addreass, jasonthien654@hotmail.com...

please feedback..I'll be online on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Sunday.
so...anyone wanna find me will be on these few days..thanks

i wish to be blindfolded for a while

hmm..can't found anything to wrote on blog today...zzzz tired

after stamina training today, i very happy to notice my stamina is good. but i realize that i train for nothing. to improve my health and myself?? to change myself?? to impress girl?? to prove myself?? to enjoy running?? to relax and release my stress?? it just ain't the reason or answer that i seek..for what am i running so hard?? i really getting my image blur...i will still running until i am tired..until I found my answer. haha^^ why does i sound like the movie 'FOREST GUMP' hahaa^^

finally my plan is getting to realize..after past these few days, decision have been made, then i can finally step out...hahaha^^

i wish to be blindfolded for a while...at least until August...to be blind and not to see what i don't want to. it only make me think a lot of stuff...

think to much think to much think to much SHU!! get out of my mind.

hmm...can i help?? or can someone help me??

i kind of lost lately..haix...being thinking too much again...what the f..

can i be the one that help you?? am i the one that can stand by you?? but is just ain't my part anymore on doing this kind of thing. i really do want to help when you in trouble, comfort you when you are sad...just to listen and try my best to understand on what you need...but am i over doing it?? i do really feel that i am being too annoying to you...is it only me that thinking too much again?? but if so just let me know...i am good at excepting facts...not good on guessing others feeling...if so...i just be never exist...go away to far far away..I'm tired...i don't know..but only i just want to help cause i care the most.

huh...where am i now?? i do to wish someone can hold my hand when I'm down..I have a tough body like a robot, that will never feel exhausted. but i still run with a heart and a brain...that's what makes me human...i still need caring too...i too needed a hug..

not every secret i can share..cause not everyone is the one that like to listen to me..i tried to talk out load, they say I'm noisy..i talk it to slow, somehow the topic will be change in a sudden...mine topic will be annoyed.....

anyone know how it's feel?? "I'm not alone, but I'm lonely"

what to do?? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

hmm, is it the temptation from Satan, or a patient test from God...
well....I'm not sure about that...haix...i need more focus right now....is not the time to me to do love busizz right now....
although i want it so...or just maybe i want to find someone to talk to and someone that can listen to me...hmm...i now really do not know what do i really need a girlfriend now...i am so blur and confuse. as everyday past, i have yet to learn on how to let my mind be free and not thinking of her..she had carved so much into my heart..i am really losing my mind...huh....

is not that easy to keep yourselves focus once you are in the outside world..there is just so many temptation out there waiting and patient have to be learn when you have once step out of your ring(home) i failed today but i will keep on going to have my dream fullfill!! i will not be easy but i will keep on going and push myself eevn harder....

huh..is still not that easy to keep yourselves positive the all time, the next day you might fall to the deepest gorge. is there anyway to not going too positive or too negative?? like staying nutral?? meditate??? om................................................................is just too iritate....haha^^

haix...anyway, i need to work hard now..i'm a machine!!! only need to recharge and refuel....never get tired!!!!! huh...but still very headache....haix

a new me!!!

love is patient, love is kind, love is slowly losing your mind^^
love is easy to get, but trust is hard to gain.
love is not gaining each other, but love is knowing each others well.
love is just so miracle, that every sacrifice can be make without a return.....romantic...haha feel like vomiting^^

to be honest, somehow is like love in first sight with you..haha^^ weird....anyway things happen a lot after that...and now you are with another guy..he's my best friend!! oh my Goodness to hear that how this kind of things happen to me, wow!!! such an experience, hmm, somehow God let me learn a lot of thing after knowing this particular girl...haha so in love in her that, not only she is pretty, but she is like a sparkle for my life, while I'm a coal that will never start my flame on it's own. She change my way of thinking and alter my path of life on how to be a better man, she is just somehow too important to me to loose..well not to take her away from my best friend but not to lose her as in an important person in my life. she had really put a flame in my life...i am so thankfull of knowing her...my life is finally changing!!!! yeehaaaaa!!!!!!!! so happy!!! no more sad and loser duyung!!!!

CAPTAIN DUYUNG IS FINALLY BACK!!!!!!!

is really envy on every time seeing them hugging together, but i had overcome it already!!! woohoo!!! God let me have this kinda taste and feeling to have me learn more, so that i won't repeat it to my friend, cause this feeling is really so damn hurt when it strike. so this won't repeat in my life!!! wakaka^^ if he ever hurt her maybe different things will happen lah, wakaka, can't guaranty..xixi^^

wow...is been so long i didn't listen to music, well not that I'm crazy, but the music that doesn't have lyrics, instrumental music, is called music...haha^^ jazz...my most favorite!! i was so crazy of you, did you know?? haha, a slight of emptiness and spaces in my brain and thoughts, you just show up in my thoughts, but after listening to the favorite music this afternoon, i have a much clearer mind that, i need to be someone's example that i am a burning flame that can keep someone warm!! i am taking paino class!!! for what?? to take jazz into everyone soul and to show everyone that is worth to enjoy life even when you fall!!! is only part of the life, let it be part of your memory and a lesson to you, to improve yourself and show someone that you are proud to fall down!!! because you can't get anything more once you are a winner, is like a seesaw, can you get higher when you are at the top of the seesaw?? seem...no. so my dream, learn too play jazz, open my own bar, have my piano inside, and playing jazz too everyone every night. or even record it my own plays and then bring it home and relax with a glass of wine and sitting beside my house big window on a high rise, starring down to the city, and beside me...which is my most beautiful and important person in my life....my girlfriend/ wife...not that i have it now, wakaka, S.A.S (single, available, and satisfied)

wahaha^^ my life is changing!!! this is the new me!!! im improving myself eveyday chasing my dream always, i've set my goal and target!!! i will get it!! i can see it!! i can feel it!! woooow!!!!!
hmm...am i being too sacarstic???wakaka^^