roller coaster style of emotion change because of my stupidity....it's always have to be "Ouroboros"

wOke up in a day which after truth was discover. Thinking of as usually would past my mind after a good night sleep. but only know that...i crafted you in my head..

not a good thing to start a day.

battle over what you want

is it ok to battle over something that you really desire for, or just giving up and walk away.

i'm tired, really tired because i am wounded after all those things that had happen. i don't want to start all over again, that's why i linger so much just to obtain the thing that i desire with.

i really wish i could challenge that guy and win that battle, but wave over wave keep on pouring as i fight over it, i thought that maybe i can utilize time to win again this battle, but i went exhausted in first hand.

but, on a second situation, that item choses it's owner, everyone is fight over it, some injured, some gave up. but as i see that thing eventually had yet set it's target to another owner, and this time is a good one.

why do i need to make a comparison between that a knight and a paladin(me). who is better??

there is so many things to come and time is almost up for the first round. when will this end, or will it out on an end. so many monster outside, so many warrior come to challenge for the prize. im the one with the opposite eye.

im really tired. investigating sucks, but i'm really good with analyzing things. truth always makes me falls. please end this. I WANT THE PRIZE!

secret...

where every secret lies, there's where the utmost truth is. human lies, but why? not bad lies, beautiful lies..but why, to get satisfaction of a moment, or just protect from what it will be going on next.

i lie....l lie about you. i lie and hide my feeling. might so that i can't bared the pain now that i'm having, to know that the fact that i already ended before i had my chance to begin. heart is torn, but hope is not gone, i can't read the future or predict what will happen next up, but i will wait and guard by your side without you noticing.

it is kinda sad to hear about the news, but i'm glad that you are now very happy.

wonder why she always went missing...hmmm.....is a bit lifeless in kuching an..huuh...now i ko whow it's feel like life without a car...is seriously damn sucks like hell!!! seeing all those chicks that we want been driven away by those guys with cars..hesh...damn it...especially foreigners!!! ppffffhhhhh get your own girl...don't grab our chinese girls away......there's not enough already man...hais....who to blame....don't know..hahaha, who ask me to be born in a moderate family.....no money buy or rent a car....(no offence k)

need to work man....to lifeless already....to sucks, but if i work, means that i will give up everything, u get what i mean?, mean no chicks to hang out, no night life, seldom entertainment, less communication with friends use to hang out with....argh....which to chose....especially when i work, i don't even have the chance to find her....aiyo........give a billion dollar!!!!!!!! everything will be perfect.....

erh...headache......my eyes is spinning...

staying cool....not personality cool, but just stay down for a while

hais...dunno what to do leh...really lost my confident d on chasing..hmmmm, well....it's nothing anyway, time will come till i get what i will get eventually.....just have to do what i do best and keep my life and happy as possible, but not kisiao that type of happy lah...

what's yours will be yours finally. it's really a big phrase .. took me sometime to understand such word...

ewrh......seriously dunno what am i crapping and dunno why i wana write this blog..hahhaha

dunno what to do lah........chasing a girls look like some high school kids will do..not to blabbered on what im saying but, somehow it just had become weirder and weirder if i keep on doing it. there's no point of chasing someone that see ur good, i mean, y don't give thx for those who see you nice and actually say that you are some how good in some certain something.

yes it is true that we need to work hard to get what we want. but this is not knowledge this is not money....is love, it relate and involve in 2 person, one work hard doesn't mean that the second will understand what you are trying to present to him/her. right

im out.

by duyung

awesome...is my 1st time...

wahahaha, due to exam I'm really going crazy man, is the 1st time i've done something like that, coffee till non-stop, 2 days strike of espresso, and it's a triple shot man!!! drank it around 9 o'clock, can stay awake until 4 am!!! omg......it's so strong..

hahaha, damn it 2ml afternoon 2pm had engineering maths exam, so screwed up by studying physic at 1st, but at least manage to find reinforcement friend which is really really damn good in both physic and engineering maths. (JPA student) phew....can let off some stress at least a bit..

back to the coffee..yesterday, which also mean this morning, i'd went to bed around 5 i guess, but roll around my bed until 6 o'clock. damn, can't sleep due to the coffee...hahaha( panda eyes emerging) then had to wake up at 8am to get ready for the general maths( lousy test, don't really is for what)

anyway, had a sandwich then go to exam, went to bank do some bank in( 1st time), went back to school study, but unfortunately that receive some shocking( because of my curiosity)(stupid), get emo the whole evening, even going to gym also can't do anything...

among study buy some kaya balls to hold my hunger, damn man, whole day no mood, loose appetite again....s***!!!!!

then, go to starbucks buy another cup of triple shot espresso and blueberry cheese cake...lol....hahaha

see, sandwich, 5 kaya balls, then coffee mocha triple shot full cream, blueberry cheese cake....what the hell...is like having puasa....and to be exact, i didn't even had a proper meal today!!! how cool is that.

and i think I'm gonna repeat the same thing again tomorrow....shit!! don't know what is happening to me...IU!!!