emm....better you go away.....i really don't like it is like that...cause i can't stop myself thinking of you......but seeing you go away i become upset .. so hopeless( again)

It's a story of a hedgehog.....and it's getting more and more nearer....

roller coaster style of emotion change because of my stupidity....it's always have to be "Ouroboros"

wOke up in a day which after truth was discover. Thinking of as usually would past my mind after a good night sleep. but only know that...i crafted you in my head..

not a good thing to start a day.

battle over what you want

is it ok to battle over something that you really desire for, or just giving up and walk away.

i'm tired, really tired because i am wounded after all those things that had happen. i don't want to start all over again, that's why i linger so much just to obtain the thing that i desire with.

i really wish i could challenge that guy and win that battle, but wave over wave keep on pouring as i fight over it, i thought that maybe i can utilize time to win again this battle, but i went exhausted in first hand.

but, on a second situation, that item choses it's owner, everyone is fight over it, some injured, some gave up. but as i see that thing eventually had yet set it's target to another owner, and this time is a good one.

why do i need to make a comparison between that a knight and a paladin(me). who is better??

there is so many things to come and time is almost up for the first round. when will this end, or will it out on an end. so many monster outside, so many warrior come to challenge for the prize. im the one with the opposite eye.

im really tired. investigating sucks, but i'm really good with analyzing things. truth always makes me falls. please end this. I WANT THE PRIZE!

secret...

where every secret lies, there's where the utmost truth is. human lies, but why? not bad lies, beautiful lies..but why, to get satisfaction of a moment, or just protect from what it will be going on next.

i lie....l lie about you. i lie and hide my feeling. might so that i can't bared the pain now that i'm having, to know that the fact that i already ended before i had my chance to begin. heart is torn, but hope is not gone, i can't read the future or predict what will happen next up, but i will wait and guard by your side without you noticing.

it is kinda sad to hear about the news, but i'm glad that you are now very happy.

wonder why she always went missing...hmmm.....is a bit lifeless in kuching an..huuh...now i ko whow it's feel like life without a car...is seriously damn sucks like hell!!! seeing all those chicks that we want been driven away by those guys with cars..hesh...damn it...especially foreigners!!! ppffffhhhhh get your own girl...don't grab our chinese girls away......there's not enough already man...hais....who to blame....don't know..hahaha, who ask me to be born in a moderate family.....no money buy or rent a car....(no offence k)

need to work man....to lifeless already....to sucks, but if i work, means that i will give up everything, u get what i mean?, mean no chicks to hang out, no night life, seldom entertainment, less communication with friends use to hang out with....argh....which to chose....especially when i work, i don't even have the chance to find her....aiyo........give a billion dollar!!!!!!!! everything will be perfect.....

erh...headache......my eyes is spinning...