time has come for me to change..

such honour of knowing a good fren...she teach me ..what i've done wrong, she have found what she want to..and i am not the right one...i once tought that i can bring her happiness...i'm wrong..i'm just a kid...i've make thing more rush, and give her to much pressure...
if i was only mature enough..non of this will happen...we might be still friend...i was wondeing how foolish that moment..wish i could get back trough time to change the fact...

sorry ma, pa...i was being to selfish of myself...din think of u guys..i only think of why u gave me so much curfew but the only friend that i got nw is ronald and eri, we only go to play ball and go "yamcha'...why u guys gave me limited time of streamyx to online while i only check for information and chat with friend..not that i wanna go to porn site?? (doesn't realy interest and need it anyway)...but somehow...i figure something out...we just done have that kind of effort to support us...i'm sorry dad u have to work so hard and im still that rebellion..i'm realy sorry...

guys...i mean ronald and eri, seems like i'm grounding myself..haha^^ weird to say like this like i'm nt gonna see u guys for a long time..i'm going to help my father to work at his workshop..yes is to earn some money for my own from my dad....but at least i wanna feel it again how is my dad sweat so much...i like going out with u guys...but i don't have money anymore...seems like i realy can't join u guys for a while now....everyday gonna work...

dad i'm coming...just wait until i get that license, i can finnaly have my own money from my hard work...and finaly i will bring ma, pa u guys to go holiday before u guys retire..money is the only way now to solve our problem now...

finaly i wanna thx her for hitting me so much..thank you...arigato

the most coldest night that i wont forget

it was last 2 years ago...having so much fun traveling with my family to korea..somehow...i miss my girlfriend...
i finally found a computer and able to chat with her...she said she is dumping me, cox she didn't really like me...Christmas eve, Christmas special event, so many people, so many couple...so cold at there, Korea..is only -05....but it feel like -18...just so cold...it blew it into my heart...is shattered...can't found my parents.......so alone....so...alone......so cold........

having her before it feels like the coldest wind had stop blowing into my heart, as so many thing had hurt me before...as she appear...she cover my hole for awhile, while waiting my shirt to be recover...but she just disappear..I've not yet recover...
a gust of strong wind blow to my...add on winter...it feel like standing alone in the middle of north pole without help...

i cried that night..

sorry, this is my emotion rubish bin!

i realy messed up these few week!! what the fuck is going on with me...i realy don't know!!! the heck, i wanna declare that this is only my emotional rubish bin, what i dont like i wrote it down to here to remind how stupid i was!!! it include the past!! so don't misunderstood!!!
this is only a rubish talk!!
pls!!!

i think im getting a depression disease! omg

haix...being too boring ady at home...think to much negatif ideas in my head...huh....hold your breath duyung....don't let saten conquer your mind!! my you my Lord be with me...steady my mind!

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