Tuesday, July 28, 2009

my mind have been empty for today, but that's what i wanted for these few weeks...rest.


huhh....since when i relax so much....wake up at 10am...crawl my lazy leg and climb outta bed...gosh....i finally get a goodnight sleep after all those things that happen to me...what are those?? those are called stress......i've been running here and there, IEC to confirm my updates on SWINBURNE SARAWAK, thanks God that i finally got a direct entry without taking intence english class for another few weeks, that's mean i get an entry to their foundation(engineering and science)..after that i'll try my best on getting as much A's as posible to get scholarship to the degree(robotics and mechatronics/computer software) is a double degree...[may God help and bless me on my future]...

i regret on not able going to take the insurance licence that i wanted so badly...but it seems like is a no for me since i'll be flying to Kuching on August 5, but the exam is on the 10th...such regret, and so sorry that i've troubled that person so much...i've shock to heard that (hope my license will not be hanged) will that be true??/ can someone explaine to me what will happen next, please?? i done like guessing game and people hiding their problem that got concern about me...i might not be able to solve that problem eventualy but at least i get to know what is happening...only cause i care about you.....

the song is really what i wanted to presented to you...but done think as an aspect still in love with you and still wanted to chase you, but as a cheerful way to wake you up, ( others too may take this as a lesson too) i mean, the world is just so big, there is so many things can be done, and there is so many people out there that is care for you...i might not be the only one that care for you, there is some others that doesn't got the chance to be with you, but they chose to listen you when you needed them, they don't need any repay, they only wanna know how are you been doing lately...are you ok, how are you, can i hear of you...is just that simple...just curious....why don't give them a chance, why don't give yourself a chance, set yourself free...God destine our destiny, but we are the one who chose our road...is not always what we wanted, why think of others while you have no more chance to enjoy your life....you need to slow down girl, slow down. stop your pace and listen to the wind, enjoy your life on what you have now, complaine can be make, that's what make things perfect! but get satisfied on what we have, cause others out there is not that lucky as what we have....

working is like crazy for me as i need to have my own money in a good way of course..i can sometimes forgot myself when i work too hard, don't wanna eat just to finish the task...oh, by the way i work with my dad and as a mechanic, to gain exprience any way...i too get paid^^ but only a little, but i'm satisfied..well don't think wrong, i done get any special offer as other don't, cause i choose it...haha^^ it will be worthless if it works that way right??

hmm...am i not that trust worthy?? after all these years that we been together...you said you know me, but do you really do?? i get myself really upset when you said me like that, do you know?? nah...wont think of that you will..i don't wanna write more on this part, cause this will only tear us apart...i don't wish too cause i treat u as my brother, but i too wish you to see and learn more, so that you could change...so many criticism onwards you..you never knew, or do you care....punch me or kick me as you want, cause i wanted you so much..my brother...........

sumary, sadness in love, dissapointed in friends, working too hard, settle for school's, family arguement...anymore??? hmm...sounds little, but it meant a lot to me...i never got a good night sleep for 2 weeks more...

anyway, i really got a chance to relax myself, thanks to God..he plan me up today, slept for 10 hours, mom's go out, but i don't know, quietness in my home, waoh...such relax without any sound, but only jazz coming too my ear as i tune into astro, then i cook my own breakfast ft. lunch, wakaka^^ played my PS2 the whole afternoon, later the best part, going to likas jogging alone, i enjoy this the most, as no one accompany me, well, i don't think this is alone anyway, is fun cause i really enjoy jogging today only with my handphone with songs played, incrediblely enjoy...get myslef sweat a lot, i mean a lot, haha^^ almost dehydrated. the final 5th laps, i stop, park myslef on the green carpet, boom!!! i slept on it...gosh, the sun shining before me, lake in front of me, breeze on worm-cold blewd on my whole body, and the freshness of the grass...huh...almost felt a sleep...i get up, pat myslef, go on to yo-yo at damai, by some drink to treat myself as today is a good day^^ drive myself to the petrol station and pump the tyres, since my mom said something wrong with it...(she don't know how to check..she's lazy) wakakakak^^ continue, when back home as no car is following behind me!! wow!! like i owned the road, so fun!! ate dinner, watch tv, and now writing this blog...slow day?? is enjoyable........

see, the world will not slow down for us and let us do what we want, we are the one that create these kinds of opportunity to let ourselves relax..clocks will keeps on ticking. choose a day, let God give you an offer of a day, sleep to your desire, and follow the flow and do things that you haven't been enjoyed for a long time..and there goes another day...that what life about. it doesn't have to concern about another people or parties, why don't just you and your car, drive along the road and see how others busy on their life, while you yourselves will laugh at them( so stupid to be a busy day for them)... i repeat, IT DOESN'T HAVE TO COCERN ABOUT ANOTHER PEOPLE, JUST HAVE YOURSELVES ALONE FOR A DAY!! you found out that the world is amazing and beautiful even in the worst situation is happening.....

Sunday, July 26, 2009

hmm...how about i gave u this song ya miss k??

"I Wanna Know"
sang by joe


Yeah, oh yeah
Alright, oh, oh, oh

It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know

[1] - I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no
And he never took the time to make it work
(You deserve more loving, girl)
Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh
Anyway that I can please you let me learn
So I wanna know

[Repeat 1]

[2] - Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

[Repeat 2]

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know

[Repeat 1]

[Repeat 2 (2x)]

[Repeat 1 till end]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOuq-DuHOjU

Sunday, July 12, 2009

this song is my favourite...is just like my life

Pieces Lyrics
Artist(Band):Sum 41



I tried to be perfect,

But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own...

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

Friday, July 10, 2009

this lyrics is meaning ful to me


良药苦口
richie ren

或许你没说或许你没说

可是我感觉到你的不同

在你的眼神那一股闪烁

代表你已做了选择

其实你没说 你可以远走

感情事谁都不能去强求

咖啡也淡了 还可以加浓

你走了却不会回头


我告诉自己别难过
我告诉自己别冲动
男子汉大丈夫 这一点点挫折

再苦再疼也要能忍受

我告诉自己要看破
我告诉自己要挣脱
握紧的双手 慢慢地放松

声线被你装进了喉咙 良药苦口


你要的自由 我学着尊重
面色和脸色 统统带走

心事不能 请续杯酒
发的誓言会过期的


我告诉自己别难过
我告诉自己别冲动
男子汉大丈夫 这一点点挫折

再苦再疼也要能忍受

我告诉自己要看破
我告诉自己要挣脱
握紧的双手 慢慢地放松
声线被你装进了喉咙

亲爱的 别告诉我

他究竟对你有多么温柔 亲爱的
你别怪我
只要你懂 我真的很快乐
我告诉自己要看破
我告诉自己要挣脱
男子汉大丈夫 这一点点挫折

再苦再疼也要能忍受


我告诉自己要看破
我告诉自己要挣脱
握紧的双手 慢慢地放松

声线被你装进了喉咙 良药苦口

声线被你装进了喉咙 是良药苦口

Thursday, July 9, 2009

why..


what is this feeling...angry?? unsatisfied?? shock?? sadness?? but why this happen...is it really happening?? or am i being sensitive...that is true and i hope is not...hope it end..never mind is good or bad...i won't be here anymore soon anyway...

think it as I'm running away..but is for everyone good...
is useless to repeat the same thing or words while no one understand their efforts..
then fine and let me be the one that run away..cause i can't take it anymore..

since when?? forgot...how many years?? lost count..i never see it as a big fact, and let it flow and i flow by it to..i let it become part of me...I'm not saying I've been drag by it...cause it didn't..or just i chose to be with it because of time...

huh...so stress...so frustrate and sad...is it wrong or illegal that a man or should say male, cry?? huh..i am weeping when writing this..

Thursday, July 2, 2009

nothing to write..


well not nothing to write, even wrote a bit also consider wrote something...haha^^

anyway, i just wanna say that a bit stress this few days..haix...wtf
I'm looking for someone..wishing to know who are you...are you there??? can get your reply??
my msn, hotmail, and facebook, is the same addreass, jasonthien654@hotmail.com...

please feedback..I'll be online on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Sunday.
so...anyone wanna find me will be on these few days..thanks

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

i wish to be blindfolded for a while

hmm..can't found anything to wrote on blog today...zzzz tired

after stamina training today, i very happy to notice my stamina is good. but i realize that i train for nothing. to improve my health and myself?? to change myself?? to impress girl?? to prove myself?? to enjoy running?? to relax and release my stress?? it just ain't the reason or answer that i seek..for what am i running so hard?? i really getting my image blur...i will still running until i am tired..until I found my answer. haha^^ why does i sound like the movie 'FOREST GUMP' hahaa^^

finally my plan is getting to realize..after past these few days, decision have been made, then i can finally step out...hahaha^^

i wish to be blindfolded for a while...at least until August...to be blind and not to see what i don't want to. it only make me think a lot of stuff...

think to much think to much think to much SHU!! get out of my mind.