cute^^

owh.....how cute was that having sandwich together...I'm talking about a couple..sweet ngie..wish i had a camera and capture every sweet moment of people had, figuring on became a freelance photographer...wonder when is my turn, having sandwich or just two cups of hot noodle during night supper sitting on the bench, or watching on the moonlight on the wide sky, counting stars together..how sweet was that, hmmmm, sure hope it will happen....

what?! I'm still normal and i still want a girlfriend too, just haven't found it yet. but will I?? Saying that now I need full focus on my study..i wasted enough of my time, troubled my parents more then enough...but sometime when seeing those couple walking together, makes me wonder how those feeling are....well i admit i have ex before, but is only a short period of time. It's been two years since the last time i had a girlfriend., i miss those feeling ..those hugging, holding hands together..(at this point, I'm not feeling empty or sad nor lonely, but rather staring at the deem blue sky, wondering when will my time come) is a wonder you know??

the weather today, windy, black sky, but doesn't seems to be able to have a heavy rain...but cold.
I've been dump three times...and I only have three ex's before...loser am i??? haha^^

but i like how those story end, i never will forget them, as they have been most important people in my life...a friend once said, 'at least you are much better then I do, cause you have ex's before, that's make you capable of having a girlfriend, i too want a girlfriend, but i just didn't have the chance to proving myself capable.'

to think of that, he got a point, at least I had it before compare to those who wanted but didn't able to have..

but more and more now as time past through every bit by the second, days and month...i have already lose much of my confidence and starting to doubt myself. Kinda tired of these feeling, being rejected, and dump..but they make my life filled and let me grow much...

is it a bad thing to act like a child in front of people?? maybe that's who i am, saying myself mature? but you don't know much about me...maybe the point of maturity for everyone is different, but seldom can see what behind my face..i may look big and buff, well not tall, at least I'm still look tough, inside of me, so many glasses have been broken. I'm not asking anyone to learn from me or praise me from this point forward, but isn't it the best thing to do after something fail to pleased you is to keep a smile on your face?? that's why I've been look like an idiot or so called childish...not much can impress me anymore. I just want people to smile as i do even if i have to act so stupid.

erh....this blog i only want to share my feeling, not to say that I'm very "small gas" stingy if not wrong to be pronounce in English. :)

i don't dare to promise anymore..

huuh....(a sigh)...crazy...went to played basketball yesterday night at 8pm till 9.30pm, it's fun when u try to release yourselves when you are frustrated or stress, there always someone there u might meet to have a conversation with you...(thanks Anil) but then he abandon me and join the other team compete basketball...hais, left me alone being bullied by 2 beautiful chicks playing basketball together^^ wakaka^^ Vicky and Emily, haha^^ nice girl. anyway, i have i fun moment releasing myself during sport..want to know what am i frustrating about, but I'm not telling..haha:) secret...


Such weird,
'i don't dare to promise you anymore'
...familiar with this phrase?? I've never thought of hearing this phrase anymore, but it appear suddenly today from someone very cute, haha^^ the last time i heard this was during my high school period, ya, one of those youth story again, probably some have been trough this before..it was sad to hear it, but it get worst when things gone bad with this phrase. To be honest, is not good to break promise, unless is something urgent happened, then consider yourselves excluded...
I too break my promise sometime, everyone do it without notice, well I'm not saying that i mind it so much, please..seriously i don't..don't take it as i minded it too much...ok?? I'm ok with it..

hmm..just that somehow the story that i wrote on my life tablet, i craved it to hardly, that's maybe the reason somehow this memory have been flick on again....but i move on my life with it...it's part of my story, it too worth as my own personal experience. i grow more..again not promoting myself.

not sure on why i wrote this blog..haha^^ I'm done now

this song is juz so sexy....haha^^

When a man loves a woman
Can't keep his mind on nothing else
He'll trade the world
For the good thing he's found
If she's bad he can't see it
She can do no wrong
Turn his back on his best friend
If he put her down

When a man loves a woman
Spend his very last dime
Tryin' to hold on to what he needs
He'd give up all his comfort
Sleep out in the rain
If she said that's the way it ought to be

Well, this man loves a woman
I gave you everything I had
Tryin' to hold on to your precious love
Baby, please don't treat me bad

When a man loves a woman
Down deep in his soul
She can bring him such misery
If she plays him for a fool
He's the last one to know
Lovin' eyes can't ever see

When a man loves a woman
He can do no wrong
He can never own some other girl
Yes when a man loves a woman
I know exactly how he feels
'Cause baby, baby, baby, you're my world

When a man loves a woman.....

hmmmm...something to write??

zzzzzz...so boring, nothing great happen...zzzzzzzzzzz
but someone read it, wakakaka, am i angry, or sad, dissapointed???
nope, i a happy. cause i know that finally something good is happening^^v

right??? or so?? hmmm...may God be the center and help us all.

my mind have been empty for today, but that's what i wanted for these few weeks...rest.

huhh....since when i relax so much....wake up at 10am...crawl my lazy leg and climb outta bed...gosh....i finally get a goodnight sleep after all those things that happen to me...what are those?? those are called stress......i've been running here and there, IEC to confirm my updates on SWINBURNE SARAWAK, thanks God that i finally got a direct entry without taking intence english class for another few weeks, that's mean i get an entry to their foundation(engineering and science)..after that i'll try my best on getting as much A's as posible to get scholarship to the degree(robotics and mechatronics/computer software) is a double degree...[may God help and bless me on my future]...

i regret on not able going to take the insurance licence that i wanted so badly...but it seems like is a no for me since i'll be flying to Kuching on August 5, but the exam is on the 10th...such regret, and so sorry that i've troubled that person so much...i've shock to heard that (hope my license will not be hanged) will that be true??/ can someone explaine to me what will happen next, please?? i done like guessing game and people hiding their problem that got concern about me...i might not be able to solve that problem eventualy but at least i get to know what is happening...only cause i care about you.....

the song is really what i wanted to presented to you...but done think as an aspect still in love with you and still wanted to chase you, but as a cheerful way to wake you up, ( others too may take this as a lesson too) i mean, the world is just so big, there is so many things can be done, and there is so many people out there that is care for you...i might not be the only one that care for you, there is some others that doesn't got the chance to be with you, but they chose to listen you when you needed them, they don't need any repay, they only wanna know how are you been doing lately...are you ok, how are you, can i hear of you...is just that simple...just curious....why don't give them a chance, why don't give yourself a chance, set yourself free...God destine our destiny, but we are the one who chose our road...is not always what we wanted, why think of others while you have no more chance to enjoy your life....you need to slow down girl, slow down. stop your pace and listen to the wind, enjoy your life on what you have now, complaine can be make, that's what make things perfect! but get satisfied on what we have, cause others out there is not that lucky as what we have....

working is like crazy for me as i need to have my own money in a good way of course..i can sometimes forgot myself when i work too hard, don't wanna eat just to finish the task...oh, by the way i work with my dad and as a mechanic, to gain exprience any way...i too get paid^^ but only a little, but i'm satisfied..well don't think wrong, i done get any special offer as other don't, cause i choose it...haha^^ it will be worthless if it works that way right??

hmm...am i not that trust worthy?? after all these years that we been together...you said you know me, but do you really do?? i get myself really upset when you said me like that, do you know?? nah...wont think of that you will..i don't wanna write more on this part, cause this will only tear us apart...i don't wish too cause i treat u as my brother, but i too wish you to see and learn more, so that you could change...so many criticism onwards you..you never knew, or do you care....punch me or kick me as you want, cause i wanted you so much..my brother...........

sumary, sadness in love, dissapointed in friends, working too hard, settle for school's, family arguement...anymore??? hmm...sounds little, but it meant a lot to me...i never got a good night sleep for 2 weeks more...

anyway, i really got a chance to relax myself, thanks to God..he plan me up today, slept for 10 hours, mom's go out, but i don't know, quietness in my home, waoh...such relax without any sound, but only jazz coming too my ear as i tune into astro, then i cook my own breakfast ft. lunch, wakaka^^ played my PS2 the whole afternoon, later the best part, going to likas jogging alone, i enjoy this the most, as no one accompany me, well, i don't think this is alone anyway, is fun cause i really enjoy jogging today only with my handphone with songs played, incrediblely enjoy...get myslef sweat a lot, i mean a lot, haha^^ almost dehydrated. the final 5th laps, i stop, park myslef on the green carpet, boom!!! i slept on it...gosh, the sun shining before me, lake in front of me, breeze on worm-cold blewd on my whole body, and the freshness of the grass...huh...almost felt a sleep...i get up, pat myslef, go on to yo-yo at damai, by some drink to treat myself as today is a good day^^ drive myself to the petrol station and pump the tyres, since my mom said something wrong with it...(she don't know how to check..she's lazy) wakakakak^^ continue, when back home as no car is following behind me!! wow!! like i owned the road, so fun!! ate dinner, watch tv, and now writing this blog...slow day?? is enjoyable........

see, the world will not slow down for us and let us do what we want, we are the one that create these kinds of opportunity to let ourselves relax..clocks will keeps on ticking. choose a day, let God give you an offer of a day, sleep to your desire, and follow the flow and do things that you haven't been enjoyed for a long time..and there goes another day...that what life about. it doesn't have to concern about another people or parties, why don't just you and your car, drive along the road and see how others busy on their life, while you yourselves will laugh at them( so stupid to be a busy day for them)... i repeat, IT DOESN'T HAVE TO COCERN ABOUT ANOTHER PEOPLE, JUST HAVE YOURSELVES ALONE FOR A DAY!! you found out that the world is amazing and beautiful even in the worst situation is happening.....

hmm...how about i gave u this song ya miss k??

"I Wanna Know"
sang by joe


Yeah, oh yeah
Alright, oh, oh, oh

It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know

[1] - I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no
And he never took the time to make it work
(You deserve more loving, girl)
Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh
Anyway that I can please you let me learn
So I wanna know

[Repeat 1]

[2] - Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

[Repeat 2]

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know

[Repeat 1]

[Repeat 2 (2x)]

[Repeat 1 till end]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOuq-DuHOjU

this song is my favourite...is just like my life

Pieces Lyrics
Artist(Band):Sum 41



I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own...

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.