the most coldest night that i wont forget

it was last 2 years ago...having so much fun traveling with my family to korea..somehow...i miss my girlfriend...
i finally found a computer and able to chat with her...she said she is dumping me, cox she didn't really like me...Christmas eve, Christmas special event, so many people, so many couple...so cold at there, Korea..is only -05....but it feel like -18...just so cold...it blew it into my heart...is shattered...can't found my parents.......so alone....so...alone......so cold........

having her before it feels like the coldest wind had stop blowing into my heart, as so many thing had hurt me before...as she appear...she cover my hole for awhile, while waiting my shirt to be recover...but she just disappear..I've not yet recover...
a gust of strong wind blow to my...add on winter...it feel like standing alone in the middle of north pole without help...

i cried that night..

sorry, this is my emotion rubish bin!

i realy messed up these few week!! what the fuck is going on with me...i realy don't know!!! the heck, i wanna declare that this is only my emotional rubish bin, what i dont like i wrote it down to here to remind how stupid i was!!! it include the past!! so don't misunderstood!!!
this is only a rubish talk!!
pls!!!

i think im getting a depression disease! omg

haix...being too boring ady at home...think to much negatif ideas in my head...huh....hold your breath duyung....don't let saten conquer your mind!! my you my Lord be with me...steady my mind!