well...was recently really really busy because study and test and assignment coming on my head. not really on to the pressure but surely enough i really have to put much effort on my study instead of facing my laptop all the time...hais...i am such a lazy pig...
coming monday have a quiz on physic, but unfortunately that our physic lecturer haven't finish the syllabus. what a crap...cause final exam is so near under my butt....almost cannot breath..hmmm...engineering maths and physic are my 1st priority to be concern because i really didn't score good enough marks...hopefully that with God speed that i am able to get a credit to continue to next semester...if i really need to resit the subject...i am so dead. one sebject to resit the test cost like hell!!!
HUUH..now talk about personal life...ya ya ya...all those my friends over here have been asking me who is the girl that i like, why have to keep so secretly to myself....well...the reason that i can only say that i have learnt my lesson form the past. Not to say that i don't trust anyone but i just really really wanna keep a low enough profile, so the the news won't spread to much until spread to her ears....i've learnt that girl don't like boys that is to fast( or so i guess), but somehow i also have loose my guts to make a confession...just wanna take it slow...
actually she very cute...nice, funny..that's makes a lot of competition for me to other guys. im not that good, not much of a facial looking..belly fats jumping above my abdominal...haha..she's even smarter than i am...everyone know her actually, well not that everyone, just a lot of guys know her. Swinburne have a lots of handsome guys and cute boys...i'm like a single peanut underneath thousand and thousand of green beans.. not to say that myself being a very negative thinking or a sarcastic person...but seriously, what i have?? dance?? crap..muscle?? under development..brain?? only one year mature than she is..hmmm
so, exam is coming, i don't want her emotion to screwed up because of me, and also don't want myself to get hurt before the exam comes....i still wanna concentrate....
i was actually planing or at least have a luck of my try to get the same class as she doesduring the summer semester school, but somehow things went way out of my thought. Due to the result that i had done during my interior diploma, i had summited those result to Swinburne(MPW subject) i thought that the school of my previous study, their syllabus should be a total different level...but somehow i got and exiting news that i got an exemption for the MPW subject from Swinburne. Shocking enough that i was jumping on my bed so excitingly that i had receive the news, but and the mind that i suddenly thought of her, boom........all hope's gone, just vanish to thin air............(not hope, plan)
surely enough i don't know what to do...plus i had book the ticket before i get my invoice..damn....what kinda day is it.....luck?? fate??? so s***.
well...what to do, i have seriously no idea about it. going back KK for 5 month surely enough will make me even more lazy..i miss my home at KK i miss my family, at the same time I'm bored of it. Don't like to face my mom always see me as some kind of a bug or something inside her mind. yes i know she's considering me a lot, but it's just to over. I'm a fully adult now, i can handle thing on my own. please...keeping me under your protection wont help me grow ma....
i've decided to stay here during the semester break, i'll get myself a part time job instead of having it back at KK..cause i sure know that i'll go out and party more compare to work. i wanna do something. i hate being lazy, it feels like my body gonna rot or something. anyone know how that feel???
i'll make my after the final exam...what ever is the answer will it be, i'll ask her to wait and then give the answer to me only after when i come back from KK during the 22nd night. or so that the plan is....huuh...i really don't wanna put so many hope on it.
p.s..for friends at kk, Im really sorry that i have to make a decision, but i really need to get myself working even harder then ever...i've wasted a year time...i need to catch up..party time for me is temporary over....sorry...
