awesome...is my 1st time...

wahahaha, due to exam I'm really going crazy man, is the 1st time i've done something like that, coffee till non-stop, 2 days strike of espresso, and it's a triple shot man!!! drank it around 9 o'clock, can stay awake until 4 am!!! omg......it's so strong..

hahaha, damn it 2ml afternoon 2pm had engineering maths exam, so screwed up by studying physic at 1st, but at least manage to find reinforcement friend which is really really damn good in both physic and engineering maths. (JPA student) phew....can let off some stress at least a bit..

back to the coffee..yesterday, which also mean this morning, i'd went to bed around 5 i guess, but roll around my bed until 6 o'clock. damn, can't sleep due to the coffee...hahaha( panda eyes emerging) then had to wake up at 8am to get ready for the general maths( lousy test, don't really is for what)

anyway, had a sandwich then go to exam, went to bank do some bank in( 1st time), went back to school study, but unfortunately that receive some shocking( because of my curiosity)(stupid), get emo the whole evening, even going to gym also can't do anything...

among study buy some kaya balls to hold my hunger, damn man, whole day no mood, loose appetite again....s***!!!!!

then, go to starbucks buy another cup of triple shot espresso and blueberry cheese cake...lol....hahaha

see, sandwich, 5 kaya balls, then coffee mocha triple shot full cream, blueberry cheese cake....what the hell...is like having puasa....and to be exact, i didn't even had a proper meal today!!! how cool is that.

and i think I'm gonna repeat the same thing again tomorrow....shit!! don't know what is happening to me...IU!!!

is call wondering, not emoing....

well.....another month more it'll be official to be single for 2 years...hmm....i really starting to wonder that how is it like to behaving a girl...sort of like forgotten the taste of it....

ok be 1st to say bout' this that, im not being emo or trying to get some pithiness...im just trying to share some of my feeling...

1st of all i have to congrats my 2 friend, that they had been excepted by their girlfriend and now being under relationship. God bless and Guard them under this status.

hmm....is it loving or to be love better?? is caring is some kind of pressure to someone? patient or to hurry up? courage or to humble?

there is to many competition out there, not that i have a very low self esteem, but is better to not compete...i really don't like it, i'd finally realize that, fate will come if they want to, there's no need to rush on it. trying to make yourself look good on something that is not yourself is self discriminating. you'll end up destroying yourself, piece by piece, and eventually forgot who you are before.

it is very miserable to live under such an emotional feeling everyday. is not really worth it if such hard work is given and no receive. well, not saying is bad, but good try anyway, at least you yourself had given a try for it, let past be past, new one won't come if you keep on staying on the same position.

one does not see your effort, but the others does. it's sort of like a karma.

hmmm...not sure what am i gonna do next on her. after final wont be able to see her cause can't even have the opportunity to be with her in the same class...cause i got exemption from MPW subject..XD

huuh...i think im gonna revealed who she is...well not here of course...XD