what is it to do?? what can i do?? hmm..sorry, looks like i can't do anything already, decision had been make...really so sad and hurt tonight..it just like the feeling of despair...so deep under the ground that no chance of climbing back..
i can't do anything more, need to get myself away for a while, coz the only way to forget my love to her, is to only getting, she is with someone better. i trust him. although want to kick his ass tonight, haha^^
haix...suan le bah duyung, she is with a better person that can make her feel better and comfortable, i'm just a slut to her...anyone know how much i love her...hmmmm, depends also...i really really love her, want to take care of her, help her, but, only more and more misuderstanding apear. she is just so beautiful...can anyone see??? yes..he has finaly see it...haha^^well ok lah, i really really do trust that guy. haha^^
well...love exist in so many ways, this time is to let go, but i will not give up!! haha, get what i mean?? even until the day she is not married, i will still want to love her, wahahaa...i never knew she would be the one that effect my mind so hard, so many. until everyday cannot sleep! cool, even my previous din't have it like that before..im just too serious already this time...way, way too serious...hmm, hope her feeling is not disturbed after i wrote this blog...tell me if u do.
haix...let go lah duyung
i might need some time this time..no, is a lot!! halve year to forget?? walau....so love her eh...
let go let go!!! u can do it....hmmm, how about torchering myself trough work so hard until no more breath?? hmm....then need to work 17 hours already...wahahaha, working machine non-stop!!!!wow!!! cool....yes!! i'm running away!!! so what!!! say me coward or pussy, but is the only way to stop my own time on thinking too much...
haix...felt like wanna drunk myself tonight, just feeling so sad...down..cold..alone..no more hope...uak!!! disgusting!!!!! suan le bah!! just cry hard hard tonight then tomorrow morning will be ok soon. hope so lah.....really so fucking bitch full shit damn loadedly sad!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go drink beer...
need to get up soon...something big is coming into my life soon...wahaha^^v i am going to be dissapearing soon!!!!! wahaha^^ wish me luck!!
take good care of her!!! even the slightest hurt u give to her, i will hit you with my hammer that is 12kg in weight and blow ur head off with my modified air gun that is directly connected to 280 psi(maximum 300 psi) air compresser!!! jaga kau!! wahahaha^^ im serius
haha^^ almost forgot to bless u both...May God put your hands together to have a better future^^v
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